“Maybe we accept the dream has become a nightmare. We tell ourselves that reality is better. We convince ourselves it’s better that we never dream at all. But, the strongest of us, the most determined of us, holds on to the dream or we find ourselves faced with a fresh dream we never considered. We wake to find ourselves, against all odds, feeling hopeful. And, if we’re lucky, we realize in the face of everything, in the face of life the true dream is being able to dream at all.”—greys:]
ok so girls. like in general friends go by ” the girl rules”. i hate that stuff i think stuff like two people like the same guy and if it was me and my friend was not gunna go for him its like ok f u i am gunna give him a shot. like dont be a pussy. and the rule like dont date your friend’s exs well it depends like if my friend likes my him or not cause luike if me and him something then he is not yours so ill make him mine.well i just find that stuff,crap. ok so i was thinking about and i feel like a mean person sometimes like “two faced”with people but really who isnt,haha.there will be girls i hate in school and ill talk to them and act soo nice and shit and the minute they walk away i say something bad about them. like i hate when people do that so i am def stopping that. i just really hate talking smack about people is general is uncalled for. ok so if they did something bad o u just straight out hate them ok u can say i hate them but there is no need to point out every flaw or every bad thing did or do. i just hate it. girls are so sucking annoying. all they do is cause drama and start shit. boys barely ever have drama, they are lucky…point of blog straight out girls are bitches.
“It’s that moment when you’re having the best time with your friends and you see someone on the outside looking at you like you’re a bunch of morons. And you know that that person is actually the moron because you’re the ones laughing and having a good time and that person is just standing there with a sour look on their face.”—
“It’s the way you smile that makes me smile inside
It’s the way you laugh that makes my love blind
It’s the way you hold me that makes me feel protected
It’s the way you apologize for something simple && stupid
It’s the way you look at me just to make me blush
It’s the way you kiss me that gives me this amazing rush
It’s the way you talk, sounds like music to my ears
It’s the way you walk; with you I have no fears
It’s the way you act when it’s just me && you
It’s the way you caress me that sets the mood
It’s the way you know exactly how to do it
It’s the way you say, “Baby, just a little bit”
It’s the way you hug me so tight that I can’t move
It’s the way you stay strong after what you’ve been through
It’s the way you love me that makes me stronger
It’s the way you have faith that our love will conquer”—
The thing about new beginnings is that they require something also to end. Some endings take a long time to reveal themselves. But when they do, they’re almost too easy to ignore. Some beginnings start so quietly, you don’t even notice they’re happening. But most endings come when you least expect them. And what they portend is darker than you’ve ever imagined. Not all beginnings are cause for celebration. A lot of bad things begin, fights, flu season and the worst thing of all… Want to be starting something? In life, as in art, some endings are bittersweet. Especially when it comes to love. Sometimes fate throws two lovers together only to rip them apart. Sometimes the hero finally makes the right choice but the timing is all wrong. And, as they say, timing is everything. Looks like this story might just have a second act. Let’s hope it’s not a tragedy.
“At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it’s usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we’ve chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them. The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need.”—greyss:] i am obsessed with this quote. i have picked so im happy
Forgive and forget. That’s what they say. It’s good advice, but it’s not very practical. When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without forgiveness, old scores are never settled… old wounds never heal. And the most we can hope for, is that one day we’ll be lucky enough to forget. Unfortunately im not that lucky. its like you try to forget things but u cant. so for me i try to ignore things and people. when someone hurts you u want to hurt them. its like that someone you hate so much but its like hey they been there forever, do u really hate them or do u hate what they did or do? idk i guess hate is a strong word. but i think i can use that word maybe its true maybe i do hate someone. idk all i know is inside im hurting and this person makes me hurt more. i want them gone then i want them here. i dont know what i want anymore but i guess i want to forget them…or do i really? haha.
“Your best defense is miles from home oh and it reads like a letter, with the words all broken erased them with a razorblade Cause youre gone i was lost then i found you but im breaking down now that your gone.”—the format
so before i start i would like to say my sister and i have like this thing going where we hit eachother in our lady parts and might i say she got me good she got double fucking boob. man that really hurt and it still does. i been reading music and quotes from shows and stuff. most songs are about relations ending and the quotes about mostly fighting and drama crap. it makes me think like is there really someone u can trust in life. i kinda feel like i dont trust anyone. i trust my family in general but like when i tell my sis something i obv dont wanna tell my mom but she goes and tells her anyway. and like in reality shit does happen and when u tell friends things it can back fire on u and they tell other people. i think like people in this life hold back somethings because like when they feel bad about what they did its too hard to face what other people will think. i dont have anything secret. i have like my own personal things no one knows and no one will ever know. but like trust i dont trust anyone. i dont trust the people in school the teachers and like anyone on the streets. in this world if we didnt have news no one would be afraid to step out of their homes. people walk out on the streets of the city scared of getting mugged. sometimes it makes me think is the news good or bad. and i’d say both cause we need to be aware of our surroundings. whatever point is i really dont think i trust anyone.idk haha this blog is my opinion. its prob boring to read but it was fun to write. well i will write something more interesting later.
so i have decided i wanted to become an interior designer. all my life i always wanted to live in nyc. my nonna owns an apartment buliding there. i have decided to live there and not from from her apartment there is new york school of interior design. i am like so happy i can’t wait till this happens. i really hope i can make into the college and fullfill this. i am only 15 and still have 2 years of high school to go and i am gunna take class to deal with this dream. this school is on 70st and my nonna’s apartment is on 81st. its so close i know the city streets by heart. i love art and the tthinking of designing is awesome. i will definitlt try my best to get this done and i am very happy to do it. this school looks amazing and fun.you design rooms and flooring plans. i can design my own furniture everything i want. this is so freakin rad. i love decorating things its so much fun. everytime i clean my room i whined up redecorating my room. i love to find out where thigs should go. in my room things have to be organized. i color coordinate the dressers in my room too. i cant wait top design my room for christmas. i am painting two walls black and two walls white. i am having a city theme:] i am gunna have pictures of the cites skyline on the walls and possibly do a chalkboard on part of my wall. i am also planning to get a new bed still mine is a princess bed.. yuck. i just love planning all this out. my cousin nina also looks up to me. she thinks i am awesome at decorating she made me go to her house and redo her room. i switched all her furniture around. i am so happy. i think this career is made for me.
New york Concrete jungle where dreams are made of,There’s nothing you can’t do, Now you’re in New York,These streets will make you feel brand new,the lights will inspire you,Let’s hear it for New York,One hand in the air for the big city,Street lights, big dreams all looking pretty,no place in the World that can compare,Put your lighters in the air, everybody say yeah,come on:]
“You ever look a picture of yourself, and see a stranger in the background?. It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you. How many moments of other peoples life have we been in. Were we a part of someone’s life when their dream came true or were we there when their dream died. Did we keep trying to get in? As if we were somehow destined to be there or did the shot take us by surprise. Just think, you could be a big part of someone elses life, and not even know it.”—
“Forgive and forget. That’s what they say. It’s good advice, but it’s not very practical. When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without forgiveness, old scores are never settled… old wounds never heal. And the most we can hope for, is that one day we’ll be lucky enough to forget”—greys<3
so last night was a crazy night. i really wish i had it on video. i am gunna sum it on. it all started when me britt, kris and vrun were walking to tacobell going there nothing really happen kris was scary of everything so she went trick or treating on the way there. then we went there and they tell us u can only gte one taco per group but we got two. then on the way back we alomost got egged. then we went down a street and a car pulled over and turned the car off but the guy just sat in there and didnt get out. we passed the cra and he looked really scary so we all freak out and ran up to a house and got ccandy and told them. then as we were walking the car turned back on and we ran i threw my taco bell drink on the street and ran so fast. then we saw him back up and we freaked and ran more. ahah we were far from him so we were ok now after we were all done we went to my house and hung out in my room and made a cd and ate candy we were acting crazy then i walkd out and when i came in a shut my door really hard and my pic fell off my wall and knocked down all the things on my dresser. we all laughed soo hard it was so funny. then we went in my basement danced and ate more candylater my mom banged on the floor and i thought she mad about the loud music so i put it lower then she kept banging so i ran upsatirs and she was screaming and cursing cause someone egged the back of my house. so i went downstairs and told everyone we had to clean it up and we did well we were cleaning up it started raining so we were all wet. when britt walked in the house she slipped and hurt her self we all got dry then we realized we needed to check the gates out side so we went outside in the rain and checked the gates and around the yard we got heard something and rasn in the house and this time vrun fell haha it was pretty funny but her phone fell in the puddle hahhahhaa and thats was most of the night :]]
i really hate those days your laying on ur couch or bed and ur so comfortable then u have to go to the bathroom and ur forced to get up. that really ticks me off. well today i layed in bed all day it was very fun haha just listening to music a rocket to the moon,the summer set, paramore, mat kearney…etc. i am having chick food for dinner i am sooooooo happpy i love chinese food! ok umm well this is boring me so im gunna go do something else laterr.